Wednesday, June 17, 2009

when i was a little kid, i was afraid of several things: spiders, the dark, ghosts and especially heights. as i grew older, i came to realise that these aren't so scary anymore, because there exists a bigger fear called death.

sometimes i'd wonder what life would be like after i die, as ironic as it sounds. i find myself asking constantly: will i still be able to think? what would it feel like if i can't think?

however, facing my death isn't as scary as facing the deaths of others. probably because now that i'm old enough to witness people around me vanishing from the surface of the earth, death certainly feels closer and more real. i look around and count the things that might die one day: my family, my dog, my friends. i must admit, i'm terribly afraid of losing my dog. i have no idea what life would be like when that happens, and you know what the worst thing is? that day will come, and it'll be here even before i know it.

jia qing | 12:26 AM